I am super sorry that I have been absent from dA (especially to my commissioners!), I enrolled into college this year, and it has been a genuine nightmare. I have had to battle with paper-pushers for everything, and I have a stupid transphobic teacher, and a teacher with no tonal inflection (which makes it very hard to absorb anything he says), a teacher who is living in the 50s as far as his mindset about disabilities goes, and then a teacher who really means well, I know he does, but he is actually 100% useless.
I have a mentor who doesn't even want to be in teaching, and two members of student services who don't cancel on me, they just... don't show up to appointments and forget to tell me they're not coming, and don't even phone to apologise later.
I genuinely feel like I'm going insane. And now, because they've had issues with SOME students plagiarising from wikipedia in the past, they're changing many written assignments into exam-assessments, and I don't do well with assessments or exams, and the college are being horribly short-sighted when it comes to making 'reasonable adjustments' for students with difficulties.
I don't want to be a quitter; I don't want to fail, or drop out, or just stop going. I don't want to do that, but the stress is just so great, I can barely sleep.
And then there's the flashbacks. I can't walk through the front door without remembering what happened the last time I walked out of those doors back in 2009. I feel like I was such an idiot to ever go back. By day I'm locked in a futile battle with what has got to be Birmingham's worst administration team, and by night I'm locked in repetitive nightmares about all kinds of stupid stuff.
You know when you just want to curl up in bed for the day? Well... that's been my month, pretty much. Anyway.
I'm horribly sorry for the delay. I've worked quite a bit on commissions recently and most (with two exceptions) are lined and flatted, so you can expect to see them soon.